Purpose
Welcome!
Ballet and music are my goals, but, more specifically, my goal is to use them to make a positive impact on other people. I believe that this is what God wants me to be doing, and it makes me happy to be obedient.
In the past, playing viola/violin/piano in middle school, I always saw the violin as this "boring" instrument that you play classical music on, and playing it was always this "serious" feat where the skill comes first while the audience comes second. And if you play it without mistakes, then that's a badge of honor. However, coming across
Karolina Protsenko's YouTube channel changed everything about the violin for me.
Karolina busks for people, and people really enjoy it. That's what matters! As of when I learned about her, she was 13, and she still wasn't super-skilled yet, but she made me realize that the skill level doesn't matter as much: it's how you make use of what you have that matters.
In Karolina's case, all while playing violin and dancing, she smiles at her audience, gives her audience attention, and interacts with them. Most notably, her gaze is not at the ground, nor at her violin, nor at any kind of sheet music - at least not most of the time. It is at her audience. The music itself is not as important as the people who are there with you. Karolina taught me that it's the
people who matter.
With regards to dance, after seeing Karolina's example of how much more interesting the violin is when combined with dance, I decided to learn to dance. It started with thinking I can just teach myself at home without any teacher, and then accidentally twisting my ankle because I had no idea what I was doing ... I was being an idiot 🤦. Well, a few months later, ankle injury out of the way, it then started correctly with finding an adult ballet class, buying me a pair of ballet slippers, and signing up for class 😅.
As a child, I used to watch a VHS tape of Angelina Ballerina, and thus I always had ballet in the back of my mind. But I never was able to try it before this. Being raised in a poor immigrant family, I had parents who didn't even have money to afford music lessons, and they weren't going to even think about dance lessons. In fact, I didn't even know exactly what ballet was, only that it's a very pretty form of dance. I didn't know that there was value in dance. But when I finally saw the value in it from watching Karolina, and when I learned that Karolina is learning ballet, I decided that it's time for me to learn ballet too. I don't care that I'm an adult; I believe that God will use me and give me whatever ability He needs me to use for His glory.
While it was Karolina and the violin that initially drew me to dance, I fell in love with ballet since then. It is such a great form of art that is both extremely athletic, beneficial, challening, rewarding, beautiful, and effective at communicating emotion. Consider reading
this book - it shows how Ballet Helps Everything in life. A person can either hate ballet or love ballet. I fell in love with ballet, and, despite all the soreness, sweating, and hard breathing, ballet makes me very happy, and, with each step of the way, I want to improve all the more.
Biography
- Sometime in the 1990s: born in Kazakhstan.
- 1 May 2002: My family moved to the United States - Salem, Oregon.
- 2 Jan 2019: Moved away from parents across the country to Huntsville, Alabama, to do a physics internship required for school. Was hired on after that and stayed in the Alabama/Tennessee area.
- May 2021: Began picking up the viola/violin again after taking a long break from it. Before this, I only played cello/viola in the middle school orchestra.
- 8 May 2022: YouTube recommended that I watch one of Karolina's videos.
- 9 Aug 2022: Began taking ballet class at Dance Classics in Murfreesboro, Tennessee.
- 23 Sep 2022: Moved to Colorado because there are more ballet class options here. Started learning with the Colorado Conservatory of Dance (CCD) at first. CCD wasn't enabling me to improve as much as I would have liked, and my direction with ballet was different from where CCD was headed with their adult classes, so I eventually looked for another dance studio.
More specifically, I wanted to use ballet for performing and bringing joy to people. CCD had some performance opportunities, but they were focused on satisfying the dancers, not on telling some story to the audience as I wanted to do. Furthermore, the CCD adult classes didn't feel like they were preparing me for performing; they felt like we were there just for "good exercise", but that was not where I saw myself going with ballet - I wanted preparation training, not exercise. This does not make CCD bad, and they're doing great work in the community, but it's simply that my direction with ballet was different from theirs, and that's okay.
- Dec 2022: Started taking an adult class at Danse Etoile (DE). Class once a week, and a private lesson after each class.
- 2-3 Jun 2023: My first dance performance on stage with DE at the Dairy Arts Center, Boulder, CO. I really loved the stage, and I know we positively impacted so many people with our performance. We had a very important story to tell that people needed to see and hear, and I was extremely happy to be able to be a part of telling that story.
- Jul 2023: Took the summer DE classes 3 days a week, 2 hours a day, for 3 weeks in July. I'm so happy to have been able to do that, and I could see so much more improvement in myself from being in class more frequently, multiple times per week.